It was Marie-Lynn's world I had stumbled upon. Inside of her world, I felt safe, secure; I belonged. This is what confused me the most. I thought she would never give me that sense of belonging ever again. I was wrong.
"Marie-Lynn..." I said when I saw her. I've avoided doing dialogue this whole time, but now I feel it's needed. Note: she was glowing like an angel.
"Jesse," she said, "I have to explain myself..." I remember how when I was without her the forest in my world became so hard to travel through. It was difficult but I remained to tell myself that I was happier. I wasn't.
I didn't say anything. I just stared at her blankly. I didn't know what to say. I could embrace it, or I could embrace the anger and flee. I knew only one choice would allow my spirit to rest in the end. "Go ahead."
"I love you," were the first words she said. "I'm so sorry about Luke and Dylan. We're young and no matter how long I sat in this place," she motions around her, "I never got the answers I wanted. Not until you came. I watched you from the heavens and felt you through the raindrops; I know how you feel. Please, forgive my foolishness. If not for me, then for you."
This happened mid-year in her world. I'm sure you can imagine what happened next. I took her by the hand and got on one knee. No, I didn't propose. "Marie-Lynn, in the past two years in your world, you taught me so much. Remember my world, how it never rained? When I came here, I saw the beauty in the storm; I saw the truth among the lies. I thank you for this and," I paused, unsure of my next words. "And I forgive you."
Have you ever seen a storm clear up almost instantly? Have you witnessed the clouds turn from black to white and then to nothingness? I doubt it, those events are exclusive to dreams. Dreams are our realm, not yours. It's a magical thing, it really is. The way the sky just splits and seems to stretch on forever captures you. What really got me was the final lightning bolt that struck. The ground itself absorbed the energy and began radiating what seemed to be pure energy. I could feel it creep up into me through my legs and give me strength. I looked up and saw her hazel eyes staring at me. The energy was flowing through her too. I stood up and she nodded at me. She was telling me to do it.
In the blink of an eye I combined the energies that the beauty and I possessed and, in a flash of heat, sent it back out into the earth. I smiled and pulled her along with me as I began to walk through the newly growing grass. As much as I would love to say things got better from here and that we lived happily ever after, that's not what happened. When we woke up, a new obstacle confronted us. She couldn't fall asleep at night. Suddenly her world became a thing of the past and so did our time together. I was sad, but I survived it. The only reason I did, was because help arrived just in time.
She went by several names, but I called her Kay. A beauty with blonde hair and blue eyes, she often had her choice in boys. For some odd reason she chose me. I guess she never knew what to go for. It was about a month or two after Marie-Lynn seemed to disappear when we met. At first, I saw nothing in her, felt nothing special. Maybe after all this time with Marie-Lynn, nothing could compare to those feelings. But she said she felt something special. I ended up thinking I did too.
We were almost a couple for a while, but we, even then, suffered many hardships. There was one night, a night full of surprises. It was the summer and that meant drinking when it came to teenagers. Thanks to Marie-Lynn, I made new friends a while before so I got invited to these things, these parties. This time she was there herself, we were both happy to see each other but it seemed that we could never be together again. Kay and I were going through one of our hardest times together (unofficially). I had about four or five beers in about thirty minutes and something else took over. For the record, my body is affected very easily by alcohol. I was an animal, a beast, a predator. Kay became my prey, I was hungry. She kept running around because she was around me. At some point I chased after her and actually ran into her. I couldn't speak, only grunt and growl.
The others tried to stop me, but I was too quick for them. They came at me, trying to grab me, but I saw myself dodge them and hit one of them twice in the face before he realized he missed. Eventually, they gave up; I was too fast for anyone there. A guy I wasn't so familiar with came and took me away from the others. He told me he knew why I was like this. He said I was a Lycan, another fancy word for werewolf. Then he brought Marie-Lynn into it. While I was busy listening to this guy talk, I saw Kay run away and disappear through a path. I could have chased her, but even now I don't see the point in doing that.
Marie-Lynn, two other guys (including the one that told me I was Lycan) and I started walking towards her place; I had to walk her home. I kept apologizing to her, as if it would take away the fear she would feel that night. We stopped, just the two of us, in the middle of the road. I looked into her hazel eyes and apologized again, remembering all the years we spent together. Her lips pressed against mine. I stood there in shock, as did she. She shook her head, saying it wasn't real, that it was a dream. I took this as a 'I'm confused but still not interested'. Two days later, I'm with Kay officially.
-Zero
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