Friday, October 30, 2015

The Madness of the Scholar

     It had been a year since Carolina rejected Wyatt when he invited her over for dinner at his apartment. He lived at the top of a hill and could see the distant countryside from his balcony. The two of them had shared the view many times after sleepless nights turned to sleepless mornings. They had stayed friends despite his feelings for her, even when she got together with her boyfriend, Fred, two weeks later.
     It was late autumn. Halloween had passed two weeks prior, yet the smell of rotting pumpkins still filled the small university town. The leaves had already been sacrificed by the trees to the gods of ice and snow, leaving nothing but the bare grey branches to hold the sky up.
     The creeping chill of winter made its way through Carolina's clothes as she walked up the hill, bundled up in her dark grey jacket with a dandelion yellow scarf wrapped around her neck, half covering her long black hair. Her eyes and nose were red, in part because of the cold, in part because of the crying.
     Wyatt answered the door the moment Carolina's knuckles hit the cheap wood.
     “You look like you're made of ice! Hurry, come in, I'll make you some tea. What kind would you like? I have pumpkin chai, earl grey, orange pekoe, some mint teas, and this random green tea my mother got me this summer.” The scraggy young man said with one quick breath.
     “It's fine.” She replied as she removed her jacket. “Are you okay? You seem more jittery than usual.”
     He froze and smiled faintly at her. “It's just that a project I've been working on for a while now is almost done. I'm a mix of excitement and fear right now.” He shook his head. “But we'll talk about that later, during dinner. Come in, come in.”
     He motioned towards his little living room. Carolina followed his instructions, but the first thing she saw was a sturdy metal chair with handcuffs on it. But before she could say anything, everything went black.

     When she awoke, she was in the chair. She was bound and gagged. Before her, the dinner table had been placed and set up. Wyatt was tending to the dishes in the kitchen, whistling to himself a cheery tune. The first thing Carolina tried to do is get out of the handcuffs and talk, causing her captor to glance over and smile at her.
     He bounded over. “Oh, good, you're awake. How's your head? I was worried I had hit you too hard. I wouldn't want you to miss dinner.”
     She made some muffled sounds.
     “Oh, yes, I should say now that there's no point screaming. My neighbours are gone tonight, and,” he said as he lifted a large kitchen knife from the table, “if you start, I may have to forcibly stop you. And neither of us want that, now do we? Do what I say and you can get out of this alive. Understand?”
     She nodded in fear. Wyatt, knife in hand, came closer, walked behind her, and slipped the blade between her head and the rag. He slowly sliced it off, taking locks of her hair with it.
The first words out of Carolina's mouth were, “what the fuck, Wyatt? What are you doing?”
He stepped away and put the knife back down on the table. “That will become quite clear soon enough. Have you heard from Fred today?” He chuckled.
     “No... why?” Her voice trembled as she remembered the night before. She wondered if Fred had put him up to it.
     “We're having him for dinner. He didn't tell you? Here, let me go get him.”
     Wyatt headed down the hall and out of sight. When he returned, he was holding Fred's decapitated head in front of his own. The face was cut and blood dripped from the emptying neck arteries. The cut was fresh and Fred's face almost seemed to still move like he was conscious.
     “Fred?” She cried out before digressing into intense sobbing, repeating to herself “no” as if it could change things. She wanted to undo the fight they had the night before. She wanted him back.
     As she sobbed, Wyatt carefully placed the head on the table and went to check on the food in the oven.
     “You know,” he said as he shoved a meat thermometer into the aluminum covered roast, “you should really be thanking me for this. Fred's idea of a well-cooked meal was microwave pasta. I, on the other hand, can cook you a meal you'll never forget...” He chuckled to himself as he pulled the thermometer out and shut off the oven.
     Carolina glanced up at him and shook her head. Between her sobs, only a faint whisper could be heard. “Why?”
     “Now that, my love, is a better question.” Wyatt replied with a knowing wink. “But you'll have to wait for that one too.”
     He peeled back the aluminum foil. Carolina tried to see what was revealed between her tears, but the identity of her dinner was kept a mystery to her. Her eyes drifted back down to the decapitated head of the man she loved. Sorrow, fear, and confusion moved her to sobs again, much to the pleasure of her cruel captor.
     He turned around and rubbed his hands together in nervous anticipation. Had she been looking, she might have witnessed his murdering of his last shreds of humanity, the parts which had allowed him to develop attachments to other people. All it took was one glance at the woman who had trusted him. Her image had become the symbol of his pain, of his insane hatred of her.
     “I hope you're hungry. Dinner's ready. I think you'll like what I made. You've shown such a fondness for it in the past year.” Wyatt said as he moved Fred's head out of the center of the table. Carolina's stomach was churning and trying to escape, whether it brought her with it or not.
     “Please, Wyatt, no...” She pleaded, clinging onto her hopeful belief in his humanity. “Please don't. Let me go. I won't tell anyone, I promise...”
     “I'm not worried about getting caught.” He replied, shaking his head. “I've already lost everything worth having. Today marks the one year anniversary.”
Carolina searched her memory for anything, any tragedy, that could be the cause of it all, but nothing came to mind. As she tried to figure it out in hopes of finding an escape, Wyatt took her dinner out of the stone and placed it on a plate. Then, as he whistled a cheery tune, he spun around and put it before her. Her eyes drifted down towards it.
     “Is that..?” She quietly exclaimed, barely able to breathe.
     “A heart?” He chuckled as he picked up the knife again. “It is. Human too.” He ran the blade across the roasted heart's surface. “Fred's, even.”
     The shock and disbelief kept her voice quiet and trembling. “Why..? Wyatt, why..?” Tears silently ran down her cheeks.
     “I've been waiting for this for a long time now. I've meticulously planned every detail and it's all going according to plan.” He stabbed the heart and lunged at her, his face stopping mere centimeters from hers.
     “Why..?” She breathed faintly.
     “You want to know why?” His voice grew angry. “See, I'm just making things right again, making you pay for your crimes.” He pulled away and slammed his hand down on the table.
“A year ago I offered you my heart. You ripped it right out of my chest and threw it away. You took so much pleasure in my pain that you wanted to stick around and watch me suffer.” He was on the verge of screaming.
     All Carolina could manage in reply was unintelligible tear-filled whispers of terror. She couldn't think of anything to say. She knew that he was lost. She could see it in his eyes. Entitlement and obsession possessed him so totally that he had lost the rest of himself in it.
     “This is the law of contrapasso. You will suffer the opposite and equal of what you did to me.” He grinned and grabbed the knife sticking out of Fred's heart. “You tore my heart out, so I'm going to force a heart into you.”
     He picked up a fork from the table and cut a piece off of the heart. He held onto the knife as he moved towards her.
     “Now open up. If you don't cooperate, I'll have to be more... forceful.”
     She hesitantly opened her mouth, still clinging to the hope that she might survive his insanity. He placed the heart-piece into her mouth and told her to chew and swallow. She chewed. It was like a juicy pork chop, but the knowledge of what it was made her body reject it outright. Every bite into the chewy heart sent thoughts of what Wyatt had done, what he was doing, through her mind.
     She tried to swallow, but it got stuck in her throat, trapped between her attempt to push it down and her stomach's attempt to escape. She lost that battle. Her vomit burst out and covered her.
     Wyatt shook his head. “You're supposed to keep it in you.” He paused. “Oh well, I guess we're going the alternative route.” He twirled the knife in his hand. “We'll cut open your chest and I'll put it in there myself. Unless you want to try again...”
     “Please, Wyatt, stop. I'll do anything. Please...” She pleaded.
     “Eat the heart. Then you'll go free.” He replied with an eerie calmness as he cut her another piece.
     The incredible ability of humanity to overcome seemingly impossible obstacles came out in her as her captor fed her again, piece by piece ,the heart of her beloved. Carolina succeeded in stomaching it all, but she was still trapped in the metal chair.
     “Impressive.” Wyatt said as he sat down across from her.
     “I did it. Now let me go. We had a deal.” She replied, her voice beaten and worn, but strong.
     He chuckled in reply as he pulled a rag out of his back pocket.
     “Oh, hun, you made the mistake of trusting me. Did you really think I would let you walk away from this so easily? No, you're going to stay right there until you die from dehydration or worse. Every day I'll wake up and watch you slowly wither away. You can struggle all you want, but this is the end.”


-Zero

Sunday, October 25, 2015

"Mangled Reflections" (poem and NaNoWriMo Update)

A house watching, waiting
A mirror that shows the past
Stay too long and it will take you too.
Perhaps it already has...

Protect her;
Protect yourself.
They want what she holds-
Check behind you.
It's on the phone, 

Expensive secrets,
Is she who she says?
How much does she really know?

Now it's too late to run.
The house calls.
Answer the riddle
And maybe you'll go free.

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      The short poem above was written after I woke up following the dream that inspired my next novel. As you may have noticed, it is primarily a creepy, horror type story, which I have not done for NaNoWriMo so far.

      NaNoWriMo, for the uninitiated, stands for National Novel Writing Month. Participants in NaNoWriMo spend the month attempting to write 50,000 words of a novel, which equals roughly two hundred pages in print form. It takes place in November, although there are summer months as well in April and August. NaNoWriMo is an international event that takes place primarily online, although many communities around the world have local events planned by Municipal Liasons. This is my 13th time partipating, including the discontinued Script Frenzy (100 pages of a script in a month) and the many Camp NaNoWriMo events I've done.

      My novel this month is titled "Mangled Reflections". The novel follows five university students, who break into an old abandoned house on Halloween. In the basement of the house, they come across an old partially shattered mirror locked away in a hidden room. When they look into the mirror, instead of seeing themselves, they see little girls covered in blood banging on the glass from the inside.  

      And that is the basic summary of the beginning of the novel that I'll be starting on the first of November. If you would like to participate in NaNoWriMo as well, I have linked it at the bottom of this post. Good luck, take care, and until next time,

-Zero


NaNoWriMo Website: http://nanowrimo.org/

Friday, October 16, 2015

The Monster hidden behind his Eyes (poem)

Oh, hun, what's wrong?
No, it's okay.
I don't mind.

(yes, yes, tell me your pains.)

I'm so sorry to hear that,
it's really not fair,
but it'll be okay.

(yes, yes, give me your secrets.)

There's nothing wrong with you,
you have your scars,
but you're not irredeemably broken.

(yes, yes, show me your weak points.)

Everything's going to be alright.
(until I decide otherwise.)
Yes, you can trust me.
(to betray you.)
If you ever need anything
(like a dagger in your back)
just ask and I'll be there.
(to decide your end.)


-Zero

Sunday, October 4, 2015

The Love of my Life (poem)

Without a doubt,
you are the love of my life.
Deep in my fiery soul,
I've known this all along.
Everything that I do,
everything that I've done,
has been to get closer to you,
to become worthy of your love.

You'll always say I'm worthy,
that like the blazing sun,
your love is immune to my actions
and bathes me in warm light.
And even when the sun sets on the horizon,
when I can see nothing but darkness,
you will be there to take my hand
and lead me towards dawn.

You could never break my heart,
and even if you could,
I would still give you everything,
my mind, body, soul, and heart.
When I'm with you,
I'm more myself than ever before.
You are my beginning, middle, and end,
and all that I am belongs to you.


-Zero