push me by surprise so i can take the dive (poem)

I'm not great at seeing infinity in a wildflower
but I can hear forever in your laughter
though I know I probably shouldn't.
Your eyes have eternity written in them
leaving me to wonder how many millions of years
built up to this very moment: your smile
a fragment of the heavens I shouldn't see.
The romantic in me wants this
a surging river to pull me out to a sea
so vast I can do nothing but submit
to embrace the boundless even if I drown.
The cynic (or realist) wants to stay on land
where everything has a beginning – and an end –
including you and I, now approaching goodbye
off into the night you go and I watch
wishing I had taken a dive.

 

-Zero