Dear Anonymous (poem)

Hey,
how've you been?
It feels like it's been forever
since I saw you last.

Things are good.
Sometimes I have rough patches,
but they're less frequent now
and I'm prepared for them.

My writing's coming along well,
I've avoided writer's block so far.
School's good too,
and I've met someone.

I think you'd like her.
She's got a wit like no other,
and she's constantly amazing me.
I wish you two could meet.

But those days are gone.
You're gone,
which is why I'm writing this.
I can't tell you myself.

Sometimes I feel I'm just wandering aimlessly,
lost in an infinite desert,
dragging my feet through the sand,
as if I'm walking through Hell itself.

And I carry a pen and notebook with me,
but every time I try to write,
the pen spouts ashes,
so I just keep wandering.
I can't help but to miss you,
to scream at the desert sky to give you back,
so I can find my way from this Hell,
so I no longer have to be alone.
But now she's here.
She holds me together as I turn to sand,
she tells me that I'm strong enough,
and reminds me that I'm not alone.

With her help,
I change the barren desert,
turn it into a forest in late spring.
With her help, I find my way home.
I wish you could meet her.
She'd love you as I did.
And we could brave the world together,
just the three of us.

But that will never happen...
Anyways,
I've gone on long enough.
I love you.
Goodbye, old friend.

-Zero

Title inspired by this song